there is nothing more i want then to be by your sides again other than death. i’ve never felt so upset confused misunderstood betrayed and alone in my life. i’m afraid you’ll never see my apology for the truth that it is, that you’ll never quite understand where i’m coming from, won’t see where i’m coming from, and you’ll forever know me disrespectfully represented as a shade of an unfortunate situation i wanted nothing more than to avoid. aren’t i entitled to feel just as crazy hurt as you? don’t you think there are terrors that run through my mind and body at all times of the day since that day? don’t you think i despise the way this turned out? how could you ever possibly think i purposely did this, would want to do this, to treat you as such to spite you? why do i feel as though no matter what i say, in meekness, in anger, in truth and in lies if only to get back to you, that it will never happen. the one thing in my life i was willing to live for, has left. each hour is a test, and its only getting harder and harder. why am i invisible, why have my true feelings always been invisible to those i care about. i suppose what i say doesn’t even matter anymore to anyone

holliham:holliham:

its been a really long time since i’ve come on here, and i’m leaving shortly
its going to be a long night, this face will keep me motivated along with his music
..or long morning. sup chirping birds, i’m just restlessly wishing 

today is not my day

knowing my luck, tomorrow won’t be either.

i’m just so sick. and tired.

i just want to cry and make this pain in my chest go away, but i know it’ll only get worse, only get stronger.

it’s hard to try to fight for something, when you feel no one cares, especially the one you’re fighting for

i need to stay off the computer, but its so fucking hard lol OTL :c

LOOOOOOL

Alisha WHY DOES THIS LOOK LIKE ME LOL

MY FULL NAME LOLOL I LOOK LIKE SIWON AHJUSSI 

finally, alishazn, so sad, forever alone

AND JUST FOR KICKS, LOL, OLD OLD MYSPACE NAME

this is too good lol

lionofbedstuy:

I have that feeling right now.

I hate that feeling.

welcome to my life always ._.

whyyyy, anyone else having this problemo?
also, Y ONLY LESS DAN HALF MY GIF SHOW UP, MY THEME? fuck 

i know its and apparent tumblr bro code to not put your tumblr link on facebook, but i did anyways, and it makes me wonder

not that i really have anything to be ashamed of, i’m already pretty out spoken on what i like and don’t. but at the same time, there are things i wish to say, confide in my tumblr without judgement. will i still be liked if i show my true self? idk

ALSO CAUSE THERES DICKS AND NAKED BOOBIES AND SHIT ON MY PAGE LOL

.. things are getting too complicated in my house. i wish i could just leave, i’m so sick and tired of yelling.

i want to just lock myself away and never come out.

would anyone look?